Clubb Life

2012.

2012-01-07T06:12:00.000-08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

2011 sent us along with many great blessing, We bought a house and had another beautiful little girl.

Now to wonder what this year will bring. As of Jan 1st John was moved to night shift

in the jail. What a huge adjustment. Its certainly not easy but we are so Thankful he still has a job . He's so strong and would do anything for his little family. I love him so much. He has always been my rock.

We brought in the new year with our family. The best way to bring it in! Counted down, kissed my hubby and girls and felt really old the next morning! Whew i was tired lol Midnight loses its excitement when you get older.

We set our many resolutions.

Mine of course to get rid of this baby weight plus some..

Stress less and find some ME time.

Johns was to get back in his "bootcamp" shape

Get back to school and get his degree.

I also said i wanted to work more on our home, Paint, decorate and organize. We want a fence for our backyard, a screen door for the front door, make the basement into my crafty place and kid friendly. I'm in the works of getting a job for two days a week or so when John is off so we can have extra money for these projects.

Im excited for this new year and hope to complete our many goals.As we watch our beautiful girls grow! Natalie wil be 3 months on the 17th and We are Only a few months away from Baileys 3rd Birthday!

Christmas Blessings

2012-01-07T05:56:00.000-08:00

OK its been a little while since Ive blogged. So I guess lets back track! We had a great Christmas! All four of us. It was lots of fun. Bailey really understood the whole Christmas thing this year and Natalie just slept through it all... lol but it was Her First Christmas so we enjoyed it for her. It was also our first Christmas in our HOME! OUR HOME! I still love saying that. With money tight this year i was actually dreading Christmas and that made me sad. So many blessings and the stress was holding me down. I had to stop and remind myself many times that Christmas was not about the gifts!!

Somebody must of felt my stress or sensed our situation and sent some Cheer. We had a Secret Santa or I like to say our little Christmas Angel left us a gift on our step. It broke me down and hit me hard. Their are so many amazing people out their just looking to help others. Still wish many Thanks to our Little "Rebel" :) You are a blessing to us.

Updating ...again...

2011-11-14T07:54:00.000-08:00

i've been horrible at updating my blog lately, you know that whole having a baby thing really throws you off :) So heres lots of pics

Welcome Natalie Grace

2011-11-14T07:18:00.000-08:00

Our Beautiful Natalie Grace entered the world 3 weeks early on October 17th at 5:15 am. Weighing 6 pound 13 ounces, 18.9 inches long.

A big surprise for John and I when the Dr decided to induce me early due to high blood pressure and a killer headache. After hours in the ER and hours in the birthing unit on monitors. Little Natalie had a few drops in the heart rate so they decided it was time. I was induced Sunday afternoon. and Little Natalie was born sunday morning

33 weeks

2011-09-22T11:12:00.000-07:00

Moving along! Well I'm am 33 1/2 weeks and feeling huge already. Cant believe how fast time is flying by. We are starting on the nursery in about 2 weeks, cant wait to get it done! We have already started moving our room around (getting ready for the bassinet) and de-cluttering the house. My motherinlaw is throwing me a baby shower next month! I'm so excited to see friends and family and be able to have some fun. and ofcourse a bunch of cute baby things :)

Bailey has been doing awesome with her potty training! I'm so proud of her we have been diaper free for just over a week now. A few accidents here and there when she gets distracted but overall shes doing amazing! happy to get one bum out of dipaers before we have another! She looks pretty cute running around in her "big girl" undies! She picked out princess ones..lol

Feelin Crafty..

2011-09-01T08:10:00.000-07:00

Its been so hectic lately and i haven't had time to finish the many projects ive started..(or somewhat started) So i got that urge today to complete like EVERYTHING! lol I dont think i can do everything i want. (some require power tools and my husband thinks pregnant ladies should not use those) haha Anyway. I'm gonna take some pictures and hopefully get these done today and tomorrow hopefully Bailey will go with the flow!

I already have that killer nesting feeling going on. I hope i don't feel like this for the next two months, its wearing me down! I'm ready to complete the babys room (my expensive taste is holding that back a bit DANG IT) lol But I also want to paint like every other room in this darn house. Whew Its exhausting to think about.

So i guess step by step i will get these done, and room by room the house will be done.

29/30 week bump pictures

2011-08-27T11:16:00.000-07:00

I took these pics this past week so they do say 29 weeks. I'm officially 30 weeks today! :)

Baileys New do

2011-08-27T11:14:00.000-07:00

End of August

2011-08-27T11:08:00.000-07:00

I've been a sucky blog updater! My last post was in July and now we are at the end of August. So sorry! well lets see, whats new? Summer is coming to an end all the kiddos are back in school. I'm so happy to have few more years of morning cartoons and snuggles. I'm so not ready for the mad school dash and sending little girl away all day.

We experienced our first earthquake this week...yes here in Va! It was pretty scary! I'm glad i wasn't home alone. actually i was at my moms house Tuesday morning (the23rd) and Bailey was getting a haircut! (we will discuss that next) Being in the basement i guess it wasn't as bad as other felt is but the drop ceiling started shaking and the house was rumbling i thought something was about to explode! i looked at my mom and she looked at me AH! Talk about the face of panic. Her living in Cali she knew what it was and ran outside.I think it took hours for my heart to beat normal again. When i went back home i discovered a pictures had fallin off our bookshelf and the exhaust fans in our bathrooms all opened up. Nothing horrible but our little town lost many old buildings and a few friends and family members lost their homes. Needless to say we were very blessed.

OK on the haircut! Ive debated for weeks on cutting Bailey long pretty hair into a bob. Went back and forth on the pros and cons then said Ah! Its hair its grows. So we just did it!!! and it is sooooo stinking cute! I was hoping to get that baby look back but no she looks even older now...Go figure! Will post pics on next post..

And one more item of news......

I am 30 weeks today! whoo hooo

July happenings

2011-07-16T07:49:00.000-07:00

Wow the summer is almost over! July is halfway through! We have been enjoying the warm (HOT) weather and have been outside everyday this week. These past days have been beautiful though! Warm 70's with a breeze. Perfect weather! I finally have a tan this year! WHOO HOO i feel like me and again..well besides the big baby bump I'm rocking ;) Bailey even has a cute tan and a little white Bum! haha My fav part of summer! Shes been having a blast with the two girls i've been watching durning the week. She thinks they are her personal playmates. ( they actully might be somedays lol) We have been enjoying time with family aswell. We had the Clubbs over for a cookout last night and had a blast! Gotta love summer nights!! Nothing beats burgers on the grill and good times with friends and family!

We leave in exactly one week for vacation!! I CANNOT wait!!! I want to stick my toes in the warm sand and hear the waves! Bailey has been talking about the beach for the past month, cant wait to see her little face light up once we get there. I'm so excited to spend some time with family! My two big brothers and my cousins will be there with their families. Its really been way too long since Ive seen any of them! My grandma planned this awesome trip and I couldn't thank her more!! Shes a special woman and us grandkids are incredibly lucky to have her! Love you Grandmom!! :)

I'm 24 weeks on the dot today. Time is flying by and we are getting closer and closer to November! This pregnancy has really seemed to go by fast. The baby has been moving like crazy and you can even see it now. Its like nothing youve ever experienced one of the most amazing feelings I cant even begain to explain it. Anyone who has had a baby knows what im talking about. Its unbelievable, best feeling in the world. Nothing like creating life! I feel so blessed as a woman to be able to take on the duty of pregnancy and motherhood. (besides all that other woman stuff ugh) :)

Clubb baby # 2 update

2011-07-09T10:18:00.000-07:00

Well we had our ultrasound last week and drum roll please.........da da da daaaaa We are thinking Pink Once more! That right another girl to the Clubb name :) Cant wait to be super obnoxious and match them everyday :) muah haha Nothings cuter than matching sisters! So the name is pretty much set and the nursery theme is under way! Yay for girls!

20 1/2 weeks Preggers

2011-06-24T19:16:00.000-07:00

Do I look pregnanter...? is that a word... haha Anyway! Getting bigger by the weeks as they fly by. Cant believe I'm halfway through, feels like we just found out! My first ultrasound is on Tuesday! Hopefully this one has no modesty like our other and we can see the goods! ;) Taking Votes!!!! Boy Or Girl!?

Me, I'm 23..

2011-06-24T08:17:00.000-07:00

......well 23, not so different from 22. LOL so not a big Birthday But a great one. I enjoyed having my husband here to celebrate with me this year and The Rascal Flatts concert on my birthday. But most important spending it with family!

Woke up to breakfast in bed and a lovely homemade card by my husband and Daughter, had a awesome Birthday lunch with The Clubbs (dragon chef..yummmmmm) My Mother-in-law (McIntoshs) and Madi came to Babysit Bailey while we were at the concert.Then Sunday had a birthday dinner at my moms house with the rest iof the crazy family. What a treat it was to celebrate with everyone!

Flatts Fest 2011

2011-06-24T08:07:00.000-07:00

John and I were able to go see Rascal Flatts on my Birthday last saturday, it was sooo much fun. I havent been to a concert in years (obviously) A great show like always! Weve seen them twice before and im pretty sure they get better everytime. The first Rascal Flatts we went to was in 2006.. (geeze seems so long ago) We were dating and he was about to leave for Bootcamp. We enjoyed the show and sat in the parking lot full of traffic after the concert....(little did i know that was the plan) As we sat and talked, He pulled out a Ring... A promise Ring.. He told me in short time that we had been dating he loved me and didnt want to loose me while he was gone. He told me to wait...to PROMISE to wait for him...The rest of the story is history... as most of you know what has happened since. What fun it was to share that special concert with him again. It brought back so much love and passion that we seem to forget we have durning our busy, tireing and diaper changing days. I still love this man as much as the day i married him, if not more.

18 weeks...(last week)

2011-06-13T06:44:00.000-07:00

Yup Thats my 18 week baby bump! I'm not officially 19 weeks as of Saturday, cant believe im almost halfway through!

Loves me at my worst....

2011-06-13T06:38:00.000-07:00

Between the raging pregnancy hormones and the lack of money to pay bills. John and I have have both been grumps the past few days. I hate that feeling like you wanna hurt someone but theres no one you want to hurt.... does that make sense? Any woman who has ever PMSed knows that feeling. LOL

So Saturday both of us made a pact to relax and enjoy the weekend. It was hard at first to just let go. Then it felt so good to relax. My biggest problem is relaxing, i get so stressed and upset when things just dont work out. You would think after almost 23 years of nothing going as planned i would learn, but no.

John always seems to know what to say to help me let go of whats bothering me..(sometimes) ;p Anyway Ive always loved a Quote from Marylin Monroe...."I'm selfish, impatient and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best." ...It always make me grateful to have such a loving and forgiving husband. I know we get on each others nerves and sometimes just want to run away. But no other Man could love me the way he does.

Sometimes you just need to sit back and think of all the great things in your life and not all that is going wrong. Wow are we blessed people! We are happily married for over 3 years now, we have a beautiful daughter and another baby on the way. We OWN a house at 23 and 22 years old. Johns has a career with great hours. We survived a year deployment. We have AMAZING family members that are always there for us. We may not have all that we WANT but we have all that we NEED.

I love my life and really couldn't be more blessed. (Sometimes we just need a reminder whats important.)

Working on Forever

2011-05-19T08:42:00.000-07:00

The Bump!

2011-05-19T06:43:00.000-07:00

Heres the 15 week BabyBump! ...Pretty bump-tastic :)

Baby Clubb # 2 Update...

2011-05-19T06:30:00.000-07:00

Yes, I peed on all those..... ;)

So as of today I'm a touch over 15 1/2 weeks! Yay i can hardly believe I'm that far along already seems like we just found out! We got to hear the heart beat for the first time a few weeks ago and go back next week to hear it again..Then in about 4-5 weeks Its ULTRASOUND time!! I cant keep in the excitement! John keeps saying it would be fun not to know the sex..i don't think i could do that. I would explode! haha Besides the fact everything is pink so if its a boy were totally screwed..haha I'm beyond excited. They are not lying when they say every pregnancy is different... So true! Ive been sicker and way more tired (but i am chasing a toddler around) Also I'm already showing! Ive got a super baby bump already. I asked the Dr about it because i though it was crazy. He said Nope Your cramp more (SO TRUE AGAIN) and show faster with your 2nd child. So its been quite different, but still enjoying very step! Being pregnant is so exciting. Ive started to feel little movements and cant wait for the big ones!

Mommy's Day

2011-05-19T06:11:00.001-07:00

Insanely Blessed? Yes that would be me!

Cant believe how lucky I am to be a mommy to this beautiful little girl. Bailey has changed my life in SO many ways and i wouldn't change it back for anything. Shes my everything, i don't know what i would do if i couldn't wake up every morning to this sweet face. Watching her learn, grow and explore is so rewarding. Knowing that you created this little life is the most amazing feeling. I love watching life through the eyes of my child. Everyday is new and exciting! I never know what to expect from her! I love how little simple things can bring such joy to her. I love watching her eyes light up when something excites or fascinates her. Its truely amazing the things we can learn from a child.

Bailey Mackenzie Clubb you ARE my life. I love you!

Easter 2011

2011-05-19T05:58:00.001-07:00

We got to enjoy our 2nd Easter! In the same weekend as her Bday party... Whew that was an exhausting weekend!! Bailey deffanitly had a blast though! Us old people were tired ;) We got to do an Easter egg hunt at home and at Gma Turners.

Bailey's 2nd Birthday was Minie-tastic!

2011-05-19T05:48:00.001-07:00

Baileys Birthday was a blast! Had lots a great friends and family over to celebrate! Shes such a loved child! I still cant believe my baby is 2! Shes such a little independent girl and likes to everything by herself now. Which can be lots of fun......lol I call her my sourpatch kid. You know first their sour then sweet. hahah Thats her too a T! In all seriousness shes a good girl and extremely smart. I love that I'm able to be home with her everyday. I love watching her learn and grow. Shes been such a huge blessing in our lives! Words cant express how much i love this Wild Child! :)

Playing that game again...

2011-05-19T05:44:00.000-07:00

Ive been a serious blog slacker! So we are playing catch up again!.....and i hate puting everything in one post so let the many many posts began!

Are you ready!?

Here we go!

Clubb baby # 2 on board

2011-04-15T07:01:00.000-07:00

Well The news is out! Baby #2 is on the way!! I'm 11 weeks tomorrow! Having a house of our own (an extra room)and Bailey turning two we said ok its time! We couldn't be more excited to welcome another little one in our lives. I think i almost forgot how it feels to hold a baby. I can hardly Bailey will be two on Sunday! It seems almost impossible. But there is no doubt she is almost two... I feel the wrath of the twos coming on hard! LOL the tantrums and defiance is just well..."lovely". Ill be taking pictures of the sinker today so be prepared for super cuteness :)

Beauty shop

2011-03-23T11:52:00.000-07:00

Oh I love having a Girl ;)

Hot Little Momma :)

Long time no see ;)

2011-03-16T13:10:00.000-07:00

Oh my dearest Blogger! It has been way to long! Well my computer croaked and its been hard trying to stay up to date on everything from my Iphone and and blogging, well that's just out of the question. So i computer napped Johns laptop for a bit to get some stuff done.

So as Bailey slowly destroys all the cleaning i did today I'll update you all on our Lives.

Our new house is ....well AMAZING! I know i told you all i would post pics but hey guess where those pics are..?? Yes MY COMPUTER! So I'm gonna take a few later and download them to Johns. We are settling in nicely, have painted two room so far the kitchen and B's room. Still slowly picking our colors for everything else. We finally have most of my pictures up! I hate bare walls!!! But all in all WE ARE LOVING IT!! Whoo hooo for being homeowners at 22 and 23 :)

Bailey is growing way to fast and needs to slow down. She will be 23 months tomorrow, Crazy!? I know! I spent today cleaning and working on invites for her 2nd Birthday! It doesn't seem possible. I just had her How can she be two!? I love spending every moment with her, I'm so lucky to be able to be at home with her. I cant even imagine missing out on her life. She's the silliest, sweetest and smartest little girl. She can count to ten and LOVES to sing. Dancing is a everyday or more like every moment thing, Anytime she hears music she starts to grove. Shes quite the booty shaker. I have NO idea where she gets that from ;)

Well Life has been simply grand, to say the least. We are so happy with our house and our life together. We have been enjoying the peace and love in our home. So many more new adventures we are embarking and will have lots of news to share soon. But for now I will leave you by saying MORE TO COME :)

I could not ask for more.

2011-01-31T11:34:00.000-08:00

Lying here with you
Listening to the rain
Smiling just to see the smile upon your face
These are the moments I thank God that I'm alive
These are the moments I'll remember all my life
I've found all I've waited for
And I could not ask for more

Looking in your eyes
Seeing all I need
Everything you are is everything in me
These are the moments
I know heaven must exist
These are the moments
I know all I need is this
I've found all I've waited for, yeah
And I could not ask for more

I could not ask for more than this time together
I could not ask for more than this time with you
And every prayer has been answered
Every dream I've had's come true
Yeah, right here in this moment
Is right where I'm meant to be
Here with you here with me
Yeah

These are the moments I thank God that I'm alive
These are the moments I'll remember all my life
I've found all I've waited for
And I could not ask for more

I could not ask for more than this time together
I could not ask for more than this time with you
And every prayer has been answered
Every dream I've had's come true
Yeah, right here in this moment
Is right where I'm meant to be
Oh, here with you here with me
No, I could not ask for more
Than this love you gave me
Cause it's all I've waited for
And I could not ask for more
No, yeah
No, I could not ask for more

Life is so amazing right now. Every moment seems so perfect. John and I layed in bed last night and talked for hours just giggled and reminisced about the past, things when we were young and things when we were dating its little moments like that, that keeps our love alive. I love that we can just talk for hours. John is truly my best friend. We have had a crazy past few weeks we've been running a million miles an hour and trying to play catch up on everything sometimes we forget about us. The past few days we've really tried to slow it down and smell the roses. John graduated from the academy on Thursday and he was baptized on Saturday. He has one more week of school and hes done! I cant wait to have the 8-5 hours back in our lives! The long long days just plain suck. John and I are trying to make a conscious effort to put God in our lives. Living everyday with more intent. We are praying together and as a family. We are studying the scriptures and working towards a bigger goal. We have plans of being together for all time and eternity and not just till death. John is my Soulmate, hes my everything. He is a strong and amazing man. I'm a lucky girl ;p ....and i could not ask for more

Had to share

2011-01-24T10:27:00.000-08:00

There comes a time in life, when you walk away from all the drama and people who create it. You surround yourself with people who make you laugh, forget the bad, and focus on the good. So, love the people who treat you right. Pray for the ones who don't. Life is too short to be anything but happy. Falling down is part of LIFE......Getting back up is LIVING

This quote made my day and felt the need to share it. Enjoy! :)

New Year, New Us.

2011-01-19T10:21:00.001-08:00

My heart is so full right now. This new year has brought so many great new things with it. We bought a house!!! A beautiful 3 level townhouse. We are so excited to be in our first home. Its amazing to wake up every morning a place that's OURS! Its still so surreal and Bailey is having a blast! We have decided to get back into Church and put God back into ours lives. Its amazing the difference it makes. The gospel has so many blessings to offer. We want Bailey to be raised with the church in her life. We just switched out her crib to a toddler bed. Shes now in a BIG girl bed and doing awesome! (pics included) And we are thinking about having another one soon maybeee. Bailey needs a little brother or sister! lol John even said so!!! Ive been talking about it for the past few months but hes finally ready as well. We are not trying yet, but we shall see ;p John is just about done with this training for the Sheriffs Dept. He's loving all that hes learning and enjoying his new career. (it feels so good to say career not job)I'm so proud of him!! Our lives are finally falling into place and its feels so good. We are HAPPY plain and simple just HAPPY!

Pictures of the house will come soon!

Jump jump jump

2010-12-29T07:43:00.000-08:00

Sorry its sideways..i dont know what i did..lol

Dec Update

2010-12-29T05:26:00.000-08:00

So its been awhile.... Our lives have been incredibility hectic lately with Holidays, moving and so much more fun..... since the photos upload backwards we will just recap backwards.

Christmas Morning was a BLAST!! Second Christmas complete! I loved her expressions and her excitement it made me feel like a kid again. We spent Xmas eve at the Turners and Clubbs then The McIntosh's came down for Christmas Day and we had a special treat to have Josie with us aswell! (Johns grandma from WI) We really enjoyed our Holiday together and it was extra special this year since John caught just the end of it last year.

We had our first real snow on the 16th of Dec. Bailey loved it!!! We went out many times to play!

LOL had to include this one..What a crack up...... ;p

And.... The the little tree destroyer ..This was taken before the gate went up.. haha Look at that face of mischief!! Well consider yourself updated , more to come.

Sickness and blessings

2010-11-29T08:38:00.000-08:00

We had Johns Yellow Ribbon Ceremony ( a deplyment welcome back)on the 19th,20th and 21st of November. We were quite excited to spend the weekend in a hotel in Richmond. That week Bailey had caught a stomach bug and was sick and puking and by Friday I had a full blown sinus infection....so we weren't off to a good start. We hit the Drs right before we headed to Richmond got me some meds and was good to go...or so i thought. Had a fun afternoon with friends on Friday and by bedtime I was feeling just lousy. Sure enough One AM hit and I was SICK,SICK,SICK! Ehh i was up all night and all the next day puking. Poor John had to attend all the classes on his own and Bailey was in the daycare. I was miserable all day. John checked in on me many many times. (he always takes such good care of me) Brought me Gatorade, ginger ale and little snacks (that i saw twice every time i ate ehhh). By Saturday night i was feeling better and drug myself out of the room to get some fresh air. Slept like a rock that night and woke up Sunday Feeling MUCH better. I was able to attend the half day of classes and pack up to hit the road.....Then i got a phone call that turned my Entire weekend upside down. It was my Big Brother Josh, my mom was on the way to his place to visit him and his kiddos he had for Thanksgiving break and as a surprise my other Brother Joey was coming and wanted to see everyone.(For those of you that don't know i hadn't seen my brothers in over a year) Us being in Richmond we were barely and hour from his place in the Norfolk area. I started to cry and looked over at John..Both of us extremely tired from a long weekend and me getting over a bug, but we knew we HAD to go. We jumped on 64 and went to his house. My mom was in shock to see all her kids together and even though i knew everyone would be there I was in shock aswell. It was an amazing day with my family. I couldn't take it all in, it was just so amazing. I got to talk and hang with my brothers and Bailey got to play with her cousins! It was a huge blessing and Im so Thankful for that Thanksgiving miracle.

November Update..kinda

2010-11-29T08:20:00.000-08:00

Ok..Hmm well i haven't posted since Halloween..lol so That means almost a whole month has gone by..Geez! November has flown by. We went to A Veterans day Ceremony over at The National Cemetery on the 11th It was so special for John to be able to stand there proud as a Vet knowing he has fought for our country.

On the 17th Bailey turned 19 months! Ah! She needs to stop growing. The girl knows more words than i can even sit here and type. She so smart and so funny. She has a giggle that can warm your heart and a smile to brighten any bad day. John and I feel so blessed everyday for our little Family :)

What a little ham!

Just Treats, No Tricks

2010-11-04T05:31:00.000-07:00

Halloween was a little more fun this year than last year, but I think next year she will really get it! She found it pretty amusing that if she puts her bucket up to someone they will put something in it. She giggled everytime. Then she found a lollipop and that was super exciting! lol My little Dorothy from the Wizard of Oz enjoyed a sugar rush or two and loved her pretty shoes :) We went trunk or treating Saturday night then hung out at Gma and Gpa Clubb's Sunday afternoon. She loved being outside handing out candy with Daddy. She laughed, smiled and welcomed every kid who came up the driveway.

P.S Dont forget to check out the cute Nerds at the bottom ;p

Why is it......

2010-11-03T06:11:00.000-07:00

Why are we nicer to strangers than our own family?

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I heard a poem a while back about that. I couldn't find it online to post it...but think about it, how many times have we done that? I know everyone is guilty of that at least once. I know i have done it before. I think we assume family will always accept us no matter how nasty we are to each other. I think alot of people take their family for granted.

After getting married and having Bailey my view on family completely changed. Maybe having one of your own makes you realize how important they are..? I don't really know. Maybe I see that look in Baileys eyes when we are around family seeing how happy she is. She loves her grandparents!! They are her world and those Aunts of hers are so exciting to her! Family in the eyes of children can be so different than Adults. I guess as Adults we've had time to make mistakes, to hurt each other in some way or just spent too much time together, but i don't think you should get tired of time with family.

John and I were talking last night about how much family we have between the two of us and how incredibility blessed we are, but we also talked about the family who have chosen not to be apart of our lives and its not so much OUR life that hurts us, its Baileys. It breaks my heart that someone would not want a relationship with her. She is so young, Innocent and full of life. (and growing so fast) They have missed so much of her life already. To not send a one year old a Birthday card or say your coming to her party and just not show up (yes she may not know it) but that's just sad. It breaks my heart knowing Bailey might not have a relationship with some of her family.

We have forgiven and forgotten words that were said and actions that were made. That's part of acting like and adult and a parent. I don't want Bailey to see family acting or treating family in that manner. Its not healthy or Christlike to hold grudges, Nothing is more important than family. I hope in the future they can let go of whatever is eating them and realize what is important, and that's family. You cannot choose your family but you can choose to love them.

"Other things may change us, but we start and end with family"

“Treat your family like friends and your friends like family.”

He is......

2010-10-19T05:28:00.000-07:00

He is my smile in the morning and my smile at night.

He is that hug that that holds me tight.

He is the kiss that makes you feel no one else is around .

He is that love that other people never found.

He is the support and the rock that keeps me sane.

He is the look that says everything is OK.

He is my personal retreat on a bad day.

He is the hand thats always there to hold

He is the warmth when I am cold.

He is my one and only.

He is there when i am lonely.

He is my everything, more than you would ever know.

His heart is so big it cant help but show.

His is my Husband, the father of my child.

My life, my love and just a little wild ;p

Happy Birthday to the most amazing man I've ever met.

Love you today, tomorrow and always.

One whole year and a half!

2010-10-18T05:59:00.001-07:00

My dearest Bailey Mackenzie, when did you get soooo stinking old!? 18 months on this earth, 18 months of loving and trouble lol. As i sit here and type my sweet little girl is in the living room stripping off her jammies, unfolding all the laundry and trying on everyone elses clothes. My little fashion diva is growing up way too fast.

Here's some Bailey fun facts:

Her speech is great, the girl knows so many words I cant even sit here and type them all.

She must press every button she sees.

She dances everytime she hears music. ( the girl has some moves too)

She giggles at just about everything

Says Hi to everyone she sees.

She loves being outdoors.

She LOVES babies, dolls and the real thing.

She can make you smile no matter angry or upset you are.

She knows tons of animals and the sounds they make.

She lights up everytime she sees her Daddy.

Grandparents are her favorite!! (the grandpa's are super special)

When you fuss at her for doing something she now pretends she sleeping and lays her head down on something.

She can be the most loving snugly child ever, then the most wild child ever. (shes a sourpatch kid First their sour then sweet)

She's become a baby monkey! The girl climbs on EVERYTHING now!

She a vegetarian, she wont eat meat for anything.

Being naked is her favorite lol

She LOVES baths and brushing her teeth.

There's soooo much more i could say about this amazing daughter of ours, but the more i type the more she destroys the house. LOL She has blessed John and I in so many ways.

She is my everything

Fall Family Fun

2010-10-12T10:25:00.000-07:00

We had a GREAT weekend! We spent the weekend at John's parents in purcellville. We went to the huge town wide tag sale and got some fun stuff for Bailey. Then sunday they took us to Great Country Farms Pumpkin patch. Bailey had a BLAST!! This was her first trip to the pumpkin patch. It was so much fun.

Little Pumpkin head :)
Our great finds!

US :)

Bailey loved the pumkin patch!

Me and my Girl!

Looking at the animals with Daddy

Vroom Vroom!

Hey look at me Daddy

A HAPPY HAPPY GIRL!

Change in the making

2010-09-29T11:51:00.000-07:00

Fall crisp air, beautiful daughter playing with her toys and me awaiting my husbands arrival from work........These are the days. Perfect harmony the past few weeks. John is loving the Sheriffs Office and has amazing hours. (and boy, does he look like a hottie in the uniform ) Bailey as normal growing, learning and exploring. She's loving all our outdoor trips now that the weather is cooler. We finally got a dining room table!!! (all my love to craigslist) We missed our family dinners together. Fun floor picnics...just weren't much "fun" anymore. We have a few (hopefully) Big changes coming up soon. We are keeping our fingers crossed. We are excited and nervous and all of thee above! We are ready to make big steps, big plans and big changes! John and I have been working on many great things to better us inside and out :) We are opening a new chapter in our lives.

We are loving being a family again. It was so surreal for so long, but it feels amazing still. Waking up every morning and falling asleep every night next to my husbund makes everyday wonderful. Its so easy to take the little things like that for granted. Married ladies don't forget how blessed you are to have your husband by your side. I love making his lunch in the mornings (with a secret note on the napkin that he always knows is there) and sending him off to work with a kiss. I love watching Bailey wave and blow kisses to him as he gets in his car and how extremely excited she gets when he walks in the door every afternoon. These little moments make his day and mine. I love being a Wife and most of all a Mommy :)

17 sweet sweet months

2010-09-20T18:28:00.001-07:00

Holy Cow! Bailey turned 17 months on Friday. She will be a year and half next month!! Seems unreal, but this crazy girl is a toddler for sure!! There is no denying this wild child is full of fun, spunk, curiosity and Trouble (yes with a capital T) oh and tantrums!!! haha She is unbelievably smart, sometimes too smart for her own good. I'm still amazed how fast she learns things. I cant imagine life without this beautiful little girl!

The start of somethin new..

2010-09-08T12:35:00.001-07:00

I am so proud of John. What an amazing husband I have! What a lucky girl I am. He has been so amazing and supportive through out this past year. We were praying that he would come and home a find a job and our lives would be able to jump right back in their places.....and it happened just like that.

Congrats to Culpeper County's newset Deputy John Clubb.

Nothing like a man in uniform ;)

Picture perfect

2010-09-08T12:28:00.001-07:00

A few weeks back we went and had family photos done. We were so excited to finally have some real family pics after a year for John being away! Heres a sneek peek at a few of our favs :)

16 months wild child!

2010-08-20T10:29:00.000-07:00

On the 17th Bailey turned 16 months! Boy, this little girl is growing up too quickly. We've been having a bast with this wild toddler. Bailey is such a little sponge. Its amazing what she learns everyday. She's so smart and so funny. She has the sweetest and most loving personality but also this wild, silly and spiteful side. hahaha The toddler tantrums have begun..what fun.. ha. Shes really enjoying having Daddy around everyday as am I. He's such a huge help, its so nice sharing the responsibilities of parenthood.

Bailey first beach trip

2010-08-20T10:14:00.000-07:00

We went down to Myrtle Beach last week to visit family and hit the beach a bit. It was our first Family vacation!! Bailey loved the sand and water, she's a natural beach bum. We broke up the trip and stayed in NC overnight on the way there and back. It was a great trip. We really enjoyed being able to spend time with my grandmother and seeing my cousin and her husband. The vacation was great for us it was a nice break before reality set in of finding John a job and car. But our prayers were answered as soon as we got home we had a phone call from the Culpeper County Sheriff's Office asking John to come in the next day. Long story short...He got he job!!! Such a huge relief! We are so excited for him to start and soon to embark on a new adventure of finding a house!

Me and my Shadow.

2010-08-06T11:33:00.000-07:00

Me and my shadow
We're closer than pages that stick in a book
We're closer than ripples that play in a brook
Strolling down the avenue
Wherever you find him, you'll find me, just look

Pure Bliss....

2010-08-06T11:11:00.000-07:00

Us waiting at the airport

As you can see its been a while since I've posted, but I've been in PURE BLISS! I am loving every moment of having John home. Its been amazing. Its really more than words can express. The happiness, the joy, the excitement...I cant even began to explain. From the moment I ran to him at the airport Ive been on cloud 9! Never did I know i could miss someone so much!

We are a family again!! We are complete. Bailey has been Daddy's little shadow ever since he got here. The look on her face when she sees him every morning just fills my heart. She loves her Daddy sooo much. He is so sweet, tender, gentle and loving with her. I love watching them play together. I love that they are going to have an amazing relationship. There is no denying that's HER Daddy!!

John and I jumped right back into our relationship like he never left. It was never weird or awkward. Its been amazing, Nothing beats being in the arms of the man you love. Its been almost a second honeymoon for us. (The sparks are flying ;p) I cant stop kissing this amazing man.

Girls Richmond Getaway!

2010-07-18T07:53:00.001-07:00

Bailey and I went on our first big trip alone. I was so nervous, but it turned out great! Johns unit had a "preparing for your Soldiers homecoming" meeting just a what to expect thing. So Bailey and I packed up and hit the road Friday and stayed the night in a hotel and the meeting was Saturday morning. They did a great job and I learned alot and got lots of reading material to keep me busy :) We are in the home stretch!!! WHOO HOOO!

Dont worry mommy I'll help :)

That baby in the mirror just kept laughing back at her

Such a big girl in the elevator!

She even had her very own bag!

Waiting on a Hero

2010-07-13T16:59:00.001-07:00

So we are counting down the days till we have a Daddy and a Husband back in our house! Trying to keep ourselves busy. My mind has been running a million miles a minute and excitement is building fast! Cant wait to have my husband back!!!!!

Slowly but surely..

2010-07-07T17:50:00.000-07:00

We are slowly but surely coming to the end of this deployment. It seems as it gets closer it gets harder. I miss him more and more everyday. I cant wait to have my other half back! The calendar and clock havent been on my side the past few weeks. I'm pretty sure time has slowed down and the days are longer. I sware!! lol

I just want him home safe in my arms. I know he cant wait to be here with his family. Its unbelievable how much Bailey has grown since hes seen her. Its been 7 months ...7 MONTHS!!!! I can't hardly believe its almost been a year since he first left. Then he was home at Christmas time and gone again. I want to hold him and never left go. He's slowly been sending odd stuff home just things he doesnt need or got while he was there. He sent a box home the other day with a shirt he got me and a sweatshirt he got for himself. As soon as I opened the box I almost cried immediately I could smell him! (You know how everyone has a scent) Well it was his, I picked up the clothes and put them to my face and just held them there. It felt like home!! or smelled like home. lol It was as if I was laying on his chest just breathing him in. Needless to say I've been sleeping with those random articles of clothing on my pillow for the past 2 weeks. Amazing enough it still smells like him. Hopefully it will hold me over till I get the real thing. (ofcourse is sooooo much better)

I have to say through all this hardship Ive learned and grown so much and John has as well. Never did I think I could raise my daughter on my own for a year. Never did I think I would have to. Its so much work and I cant wait to tag team. He is more than welcome to take over diaper duty!! lol Its amazing the many things you can overcome that you didnt think you could. The inner strength comes out that you didnt know you had. Love can conquer anything! John knew he had to be strong for me and I had to be strong for Bailey. I'm ready to just let go and let the tears fall!!!!! I want my Man back.

JULY SAYYYY WHAT!!?!

2010-07-01T18:06:00.000-07:00

ITS JULY!! I cant believe July has finally come! Now we have to get through part of this month and I will be the happiest person in the world!!!! *Doing my July happy dance* My life will fall back into place soon and i cant wait to feel complete again! AHHHH! Im sooooo excited (if you cant tell)

Heres some new pics of my stinky girl :)

The Buzz

2010-07-01T17:59:00.000-07:00

Nothing cuter than a Bailey Bee!! Bailey and I have been enjoying summer time! We go to the pool almost everyday and the park the past two days. Its been beautiful! I've been doing daycare at my home for two sweet girls that I've known through the studio for years. Its been alotta fun havin them around and Bailey loves having some playmates. I'm hoping it will help the days go by.

Us girls are getting old

2010-06-19T13:59:00.000-07:00

Thursday Bailey turned 14 months and yesterday I turned 22 :)

YAY! Happy Birthday to meeeeeee!

Happy Un-birthday to Bailey!

Another year older another year wiser, I guess lol My best friend Janna took me out for the evening. We got pedi's, then dinner at a cute little Italian place and then we went to glory days to mingle. I was home by 9:30 lol (i party hard) It was perfect, just what i needed i haven't been out since John left and I really needed to destress. I have such a hard time leaving Bailey, but I've learned its good for me to get out. Everyone needs a break every now and then.

Bailey is doing amazing ofcourse. She's turning into little miss I can do it!! and the little fits when she cant. Shes such a toddler! haha No more baby here. I'm loving every moment of life with this wild child!

Summer loving had me a blast

2010-06-07T07:10:00.000-07:00

Well well.. June is here! June 1st felt like a great new day. I'm so excited that July is right around the corner, but i keep stopping myself saying "no, no its too early to get excited" but I am anyway. lol Staying as busy as possible just knowing its going to starting feeling like its dragging. I have to keep myself going and cant wait around.

Bailey and I are doing wonderful. She couldn't be happier with these beautiful days we've been spending outside at the park or the pool. Shes my little nature baby and loves being outside or looking at animals. There's a lot of people in our apt complex with dogs and I love Watching her face light up when one walks by. She looks up at me with a huge grin points and says DOGGIE! Lol I laugh every time. But then again the squirrels are doggie and cats are doggies lol. She knows her ducks though. She makes her little hands into like a duck mouth and say quack quack quack. Shes so smart and learning something new everyday. I just love watching her grow. Her daddy is going to be so amazed with every little thing when he gets home.

Bailey and I ran away this weekend. I woke up Sat morning and just started packing a bag. I had no clue where we were going, but we were going somewhere. Lol I just felt the need to escape. I was thinking of heading to fburg for the night or warrenton. Then John called and said why don't you go see my mom. So Bailey and I off to purcellville for the weekend. We had a great time visiting family we hadn't seen in awhile. It felt good to just let go of the weeks drama and relax. Some days I wish I could run away for good. I'm thinking a house by the beach ;)

Some pics from our "runaway" weekend.

Make up work :)

2010-05-27T18:13:00.000-07:00

Well I totally forgot to post for Bailey turning 13 months!! My head has been elsewhere.

Anyway My beautiful little girl turned 13 months on the 17th. Its amazing how much she has grown and changed. I sat back and looked at pictures from before John left and she was only 3 months old. It's amazing the difference. She is a walking machine!! She just decided to get up and walk a few weeks back and has been going speed ever since. Thats my little girl, never cease to amaze! She's very silly, giggly and all around happy girl. She is now very independent and gets upset when she can do something or when mommy takes something away.

She is very bright and learns something new everyday. She has become quite the little mockingbird. (now is a great time to watch what comes out of my mouth!) Reading time and bath time is her favorite.

Being a mom has been the biggest blessing in my life. This beautiful little girl that John and I created!! I still find it hard to believe we made her and she is ours. Words cannot even express the joys of having a child. You never know that feeling until you experience it yourself. Bailey is my life and I dont know what I would do with out her. Im so glad that I can take her to work with me and have her all day. I dont think I could have the heart to drop her off somewhere everyday. I'd be so lost with out her. We have a great routine and Bailey knows it. Structure is so important right now.

Ok so enough blabbing! On to the good stuff my beautiful girl ;)

...(the other love of my life)

Two years of heaven

2010-05-22T17:52:00.000-07:00

When I first saw you, I saw love.
And the first time you touched me, I felt love.
And after all this time, you're still the one I love.

Looks like we made it
Look how far we've come my baby
We mighta took the long way
We knew we'd get there someday

They said, "I bet they'll never make it"
But just look at us holding on
We're still together still going strong

(You're still the one)
You're still the one I run to
The one that I belong to
You're the one I want for life
(You're still the one)
You're still the one that I love
The only one I dream of
You're still the one I kiss good night

Ain't nothin' better
We beat the odds together
I'm glad we didn't listen
Look at what we would be missin'

I'm so glad we made it
Look how far we've come my baby

Today is our 2 year anniversary! Not so fun with John not being here, But I still love him as much as the day i married him. John has been an amazing husband I hate that hes not here to spend it with me, but I know we have plenty of anniversaries ahead of us to celebrate. John has changed my life in so many ways. Never did I know I could love someone so much.

I love that we have known each other forever. We always joke and say it was love at first site. Ok at 12 I guess not, but years later when we reconnected it definitely was. We have been through so much together in our few short years.Just months after we started dating John went to Boot camp and AT and we stayed together and stayed strong. Wrote letters everyday and got once a week calls. When he got back we just jumped right back into our relationship like we never were apart.

We didn't get quite the response we thought we would when we announced we were engaged. Oh the fun we had with that one. We stayed strong and had each others backs..( and believe me it wasn't easy) We both at one point or another said "lets just run away" I'm sure they all would of loved that. LOL But nothing can destroy love. We were meant to be and we knew it. Why wait!? I cant even count how many times we said that. We were in love and there was no reason not to yell it from the roof tops! We were married May 22nd 2008.

Also had the why wait policy when it came to having a baby ;p Got pregnant July of 2008 and Had a beautiful daughter April 17th 2009. John has been deployed for 10 long months now. I have my days when i want to cry and give up but John is always there to call and tell me its going to be ok. Even from far away hes still my rock. He may be overseas but hes still "got my back" I don't thank him as much as I should I know its hard on him as well, but he stays strong for me. He is truly amazing and I cant wait to have him back! Happy two years baby and many many more to come.

Cause I know I'll never find another Soulmate

Destressing... AKA word vomit

2010-05-16T11:58:00.000-07:00

I was taught to " Be kind for everyone you meet may be fighting a harder battle" (Plato) or Never judge anyone till you've walked a mile in their shoes..... At what point can you say screw it? How long do you have to "be kind" to someone and receive nothing in return till you can give up? Now i know the point of being kind is not expect anything in return. I was taught that as well. I'm still nice to people who show me kindness. I'm not saying that I've had a hard life because I know people that have had harder but I have been through many trials. So saying they have a tough life or you dont understand what their going through is not a good excuse. What could make someone so bitter? What could make someone have hate towards another person? .....Jealously? ......Unhappy with thier own life? Those are really the only excuses I can think of and those really aren't good excuses. Is it bad I've reached the point that i just don't care anymore? Whether your unhappy or jealous.. I don't pity you or feel bad for you anymore. By being this way you are destroying your life.. YOUR life and only yours. You may think you are putting me down or making fun of me, but in reality you just look immature and dumb... Congrats your 14 again. There are people that are unhealthy not physically but mentally. Those people wear you down and stress you out. That makes you unhealthy. I don't need any extra stress in my life. Therefore you are not welcome in my life. Go stress someone else out.

Acceptance.....everyone wants to be accepted. Everyone wants to be liked, but at some point you have to say I AM ME! If you don't like me, thats ok..please don't pretend to. People have to get over the "teenage image" of being liked and having friends. Its not going to hurt my feelings if you don't like me. I always stressed about people liking me always have, and as I've crossed over into adulthood and motherhood I realized I really don't care if people like me. I have grown comfortable with myself I know who I am, I know what I want and most importantly I know where I'm going. Can you say that? It's so juvenile to hold grudges. As a teen i held sooooo many just little dumb things people did or people said. Even now I see people doing it even GROWN adults!! If I can get over that, I'm sure everyone else can. too The past is the past people make mistakes I dont have to like you (LOL) but i have forgiven and forgotten. Grow up people, I mean really...

A Salute To The Military Wife

2010-05-13T05:55:00.000-07:00

A Salute to the Military Wife
This is for the sad military wives, the angry military wives, and the strong military wives.
This is for the young women that are waking up at 6 a.m. every morning, laying out clothes and packing three lunches for those small precious children that they have been left alone to care for.
This is for the pregnant military wife wondering if her husband will make it home in time to watch their *miracle* happen.
This is for the childless military wife, living in a town or on a base alone where she is a complete stranger to her surroundings.
This is for the women that feel like a third leg when they go out with their friends and their husbands.
This is for the military wife that canceled all her plans to wait by the phone, and even though the phone broke up and cut off every time you spoke to him you waited anyway.
This is a pledge to the women that cry themselves to sleep in an empty bed.
This is to recognize the woman that felt like she was dying inside when he said he had to go, but smiled for him anyway.
This is for those of you that are faithfully in that long line at the post office once a month, handling 2 large boxes and 2 small children like a pro.
This is for that woman that decided to remodel the house to pass time, and then realized that she had no idea what she was doing and sighed and wished she had a little help.
This is for all the lonely nights, all the one-person dinners, and all of the wondering thoughts because you haven’t heard from him in days.
A toast to you for falling apart, and putting yourselves back together. Because a pay check isn’t enough, a body pillow in your bed is no consolation, and a web cam can never compare.
This is for all of you no matter how easy or hard this was for you. Our marines/soldiers/airmen/sailors/coasties are brave, they are heroes, but so are we.
So the next time someone tells you that they would never marry a military guy, don’t bother explaining to them that you can’t control who you fall in love with. Just think of this and nod your head, know that you are the stronger woman.
Hold your heads up high, hang that flag in your front yard, stick 100 magnets on your car, and then give yourself a pat on the back.
If you are a military spouse or know a military spouse,
THANK YOU FOR YOUR SACRIFICE’S

I'm the Mom thats why :)

2010-05-12T06:05:00.000-07:00

Well Happy 2nd Mothers Day to me!! The day started out a bit rough, I gotta say I was down and depressed. I pulled myself out of my funk and managed to put a smile on my face. Being a mom has been the best thing that ever happened to me..(besides marrying the Love of my life) Its amazing how one little life can changed everything about yours. Bailey is my life, shes my everything I don't know what i would do without her. I wake up every morning for her, I truck on through my days for her and I go bed every night for her. She keeps me busy keeps me running and even keeps me from sleeping lol But I love every second of it!

Being a "single" mom has being a huge obstacle, but oh wow the major respect I have gain for those who have or are currently raising children on their own. Its NOT an easy job. Mad props to the Mommas!! I get mad, I get tired and I get aggravated. But the sweet smiles and the cuddles make it worth it. The new talents, the discoveries and the new amusing things she learns keeps me laughing and excited for her and what the future holds.

I have great family and friends who have been here to support me and Bailey. They have been a huge help with my work schedule and when I just need a little me time!! I have a hard time letting go or admitting I just cant do it on my own. Rarely do i admit that I need help. I feel that I should be able to do it all. I sit here and cry and wonder why God dealt me this if I'm not able to handle it. Then I realized he blessed me with the amazing people in my life to help me through it all. A special Thanks to ALL of them, With out you all I would be a mess :p ....ok a bigger mess

Miss Independent

2010-05-03T09:45:00.000-07:00

Bailey decided to feed herself this morning, I gotta say she did a great job. A little yogurt here an little yogurt there. But not as bad has I imagined it would be. My little girl is growing up right before my eyes. Its so hard to believe sometimes. Just the little things seem to be huge at times.

First Haircut!

2010-05-03T09:28:00.001-07:00

Bailey got her first haircut on Friday! I really wanted to wait till John got home but the poor thing was loosing vison. Lol She did great! (The snacks helped with that) A couple snips gave her a new look! She looks way to old now.

Before the cut!

During!

Bangs! :)

Being one is way fun :)

2010-04-21T08:21:00.000-07:00

Lazy spring days with picnics in the park. First days as a one year old have been pretty exciting so far. We are loving every moment of this beautiful weather..(besides the yucky rainy day we are currently having) We are down to about 3 months left till our family is whole again. Hoping the beautiful weather helps the time to go by fast!

Happy First Birthday Bailey!

2010-04-21T08:07:00.000-07:00

The Cake!!

Happy Birthday to you!

Yummy edible centerpieces!

Gift table (with pictures of Daddy)

The Train Depot!

Opening gifts

More gifts!

A very happy Mommy and Baby!

First Easter

2010-04-07T08:34:00.001-07:00

Bailey had a blast on her first Easter! Wasnt too sure what to think about it, but loved her basket of goodies!

A whole new ride!

2010-03-28T17:59:00.000-07:00

We turned Baileys carseat around yesterday! Its soo weird! Ah! She loves it! It's a whole new world, she can see so much more! I look back at here and she giggles because she can see me now. Its sooo cute! Hopefully this will make car rides alot easier

Almost 1!!

2010-03-27T05:37:00.000-07:00

We had Baileys One year portraits done yesterday! It was so fun!! She's not a big cake fan and our little texture baby did not like the icing on her hands. LOL She was funny. Here's a few and more to come! AHH! Cant believe shes almost ONE!!!!!!!!

11 Amazing months

2010-03-19T18:14:00.000-07:00

Bailey Mackenzie 11 MONTHS!! HOLY COW! Crazy to think my baby will a year in a month. Party planning is working its way! We will be having her party at The Train Depot in Culpeper. The theme was cupcakes, but yesterday i feel in love with a new design! So you will just have to wait and see. Here are a few new pics of my eleven month old! She turned 11 months on St Pattys Day!

Zebra Fab

2010-03-16T19:51:00.000-07:00

Alright well Its been a little while since I posted anything....Hmm nothing has changed....at all.... LOL Bailey will be 11 months tomorrow! Cant believe my baby will be a year soon!! She's growing into such a little girl. We got some hardcore party planning going on. We're gonna be broke by the time we are done, but hey it's her FIRST Birthday! Kinda a big deal. So excited! Her theme is Cupcakes. I'm making her invites and getting her pictures taken next Friday. I will post them as soon as i get them of course!

This month has gone by pretty quickly is more than half way over. I'm OK with that! LOL I've been trying to stay busy between party planning and new projects. Below are a few pics of the dress and hairbow I made. I've had a lot of fun making dresses and shirts for B! I got some new material so more to come. We are doing great and ready to get a husband and Daddy back :)

Getting Closer

2010-02-20T17:46:00.000-08:00

Well Time is going by, slowly but surely..... About 5 months now and my family is complete again! I cant wait for spring to get here that's my downhill. I'm so tired of cold and snow!!! I ready for birds, flowers, sunny days and walks in the park. Cant wait to get Bailey out there to play. She loves being outside! She is growing up so fast right before my eyes. I'm already planning her birthday party and planning her one year portraits. I must say they are going to be sooooo stinking cute :) Then in May is our 2 year Anniversary and the studio's dance recital, June my 22nd Birthday and Late July HE WILL BE HOME!!!!

Come on Mother Nature Lets kick it up a notch..

10 Months

2010-02-20T05:55:00.000-08:00

Bailey turned 10 months on the 17th. She's two months away from a year! How crazy is that? She took her first step on the 17th. She never ceases to amaze on her milestones. She hasn't taken another one yet, but she is she getting braver with letting go of things while standing and trying to climb on everything. Shes a little monkey! Birthday plannings are in the making!

Bailey's new poutyface haha I call it her duckface!

Cute little 10 month old!

Current words are: Mama, Dada Hi, byebye, No, pattycake, clap clap clap, duck, lala and baby, but it sounds like BA-BEE soo cute when she picks up her babydoll and says it :)

Snow, Snow, go away...

2010-02-10T05:46:00.000-08:00

Stinkin, Stinkin snow!!! That's all i have to say. Winter needs to be over I AM DONE! I cant remember that the last time we had snow like this...I was little and enjoyed it.. but no, not this time! I've been camping out At Johns parents so I'm not stuck at home. It tends to get cold and dark in snow storms. lol I have to say I've really enjoyed my time here being with family and Bailey has had a blast with gma, gpa and her aunts! I haven't taken out in the snow this time yet. Its just too cold and too MUCH!!! She really wasn't a fan of it last time anyway. (or her snowsuit) I have to say despite how much i dislike it. Late at night looking out at it from a warm house it can be quite beautiful. BUT now it needs to go away and be gone for good! I need springtime now and Winter needs to be over! I makes time drag and that's the last thing i need is dragging time. My countdown is beginning and its a bit over 5 months now! ..He just needs to come home! I'm so ready for this deployment to be over. Bailey's birthday is officially a bit over two months!! Cant believe my baby is turning one, but i also wish her daddy was here to celebrate that with us! I know he's as amazed as I am!! Time has really flown this past year and now this 5 months needs to fly as well!!!!!

Bailey playing pattycake!

Watching the girls play in the snow

Back to the Grind

2010-01-17T16:34:00.000-08:00

Well John went back overseas on the 6th and its just me and B again. I went through my funk and now I'm back. LOL Don't have time to be down when I'm chasing this little one around. I have good days and bad days but don't we all. I'm having fun watching Bailey grow and explore. Of course wishing John was here enjoying this with me. Staying busy and staying positive are my two biggest things. I chopped all my hair off yesterday and never felt better it was time for a change. Feels like a weight has been lifted. I'm feeling fresh, new and ready to get on with life. Well that's pretty much it. Nothing big going on with our lives right now. Counting down till John gets home and all the milestones along the way. Bailey will be a year in April, John and I will be Married 2 years in May. Of course my 22nd Birthday in June(Best holiday ever) ;p Then i will get my Amazing husband BACK!

BEFORE

AFTER!!!!!!

A few fairly new pics of B and me.

9 months of living!

2010-01-17T16:21:00.000-08:00

Our beautiful girl is growing, growing and growing some more. Hard to believe she is 9 months today! She never ceases to amaze me. She learns something new everyday. Such a smart and strong willed little girl. She can get from one side of a room to another in a blink. Pulling up and standing on every thing possible and starting to cruise a bit. I went in to get her out of her crib today and there she was just standing there! Little booger! She is surely starting to test her limits. Also discovered the stairs at Grandma and Grandpa Clubbs house and found out she can crawl up them!!! I have to be one step ahead of her all the time. Here are few new pics of my drama queen.

Current words she can say are: mama, dada, clap, hi, bye, pattycake and ofcourse NO! lol (go figure)

Being a Family again!

2009-12-30T17:54:00.000-08:00

Love, love, LOVE spending time as a family, only if its for 10 days. We are taking every moment in. John is loving playing with Bailey and seeing how much she has grown. Hes just amazed with all the changes!!

Christmas Morning

2009-12-30T17:48:00.000-08:00

Bailey's first Christmas was a bit late but she didnt know! lol I waited for John to get home before we opened any gifts so we had "Christmas morning" on the 26th. She loved the boxes and paper more than her gifts. lol We had a great time playing on the floor all day.

Thanks Santa....

2009-12-30T17:40:00.000-08:00

Bailey and I got the best present ever this Christmas!! A husband and a Daddy! John arrived Christmas day at Dulles! Bailey went straight to him and has kept him in her sights ever since. Hes only home for 10 days, but what a treat to have him here. I don't want to let go. We are loving every second of time together!

Let it snow...

2009-12-22T07:34:00.000-08:00

We got about 2 feet of snow this past weekend! It was pretty crazy. I laughed at the news and well....I lost power Saturday night and Johns Dad came and picked me and Bailey up. We stayed the weekend at their house. Bailey got to "play" in the snow for the first time. She wasn't too sure about it and she definitely didn't like her snowsuit! LOL Poor thing couldn't move.

Santa Baby

2009-12-18T17:38:00.000-08:00

She sure makes a cute little Santa!

Hello Mr Clause

2009-12-18T17:29:00.000-08:00

Christmas is right around the corner!! Seems like these past few weeks have just flown by. Luckily I have my shopping done so I'm just sitting back and letting the days roll on. Having a great time watch Bailey experience her first Christmas. Love seeing her amazement with lights, presents and Christmas trees. She was able to meet Mr. Clause and wasn't too sure of him but loved his beard!! lol

8 Stinkin Months!!

2009-12-17T06:03:00.000-08:00

NO WAY! Not possible, yup guess it is.. My beautiful little girl is 8 months today. Crawling like its nobodies business and pulling up on anything she can find!!! Here are some new pisc of our Wild Child!!

Update!

2009-12-04T10:32:00.000-08:00

Its been too long since I've been on here. So i guess i need to update everyone. Bailey will be 8 months on the 17th! Cant believe my baby is getting soo big! She's crawling like crazy now. It amazing to watch her go, she gets sooo excited. She's discovering new things all the time. She's gonna have a ball on Christmas!! Its hard not having John here to decorate and prepare for the holidays. I know its going to be hard on Christmas eve and day. Its just so strange to not have him here next to me. Theres so many moments i just want to share with him. I know he misses Bailey so much. She has changed so dramatically since hes been here. I cant wait for him to be able to hold his little girl in his arms again.

Family fun

2009-11-04T06:44:00.000-08:00

My Brother Josh and his kids came to town for Halloween. So Bailey got to see her cousins, and i got to send some quality sibling time with my big bro! My Fun loving little Nephew Alex. He's a Nut! My sweet gentle Nephew Preston. A sweet heart!

Sarah my beautiful niece.

My Big bro and me!

The whole crazy crew!

Cousin Sarah giving Bailey some hugs and kisses.

First Halloween.

2009-11-04T06:36:00.000-08:00

Bailey had a great time on her first Halloween. She was a Happy little pink bunny and put up with all of mommys picture taking.

I found the cutest Bow to go on the cutest baby :)

2009-10-24T11:03:00.001-07:00

Mama :)

2009-10-21T17:38:00.000-07:00

As of Saturday the 17th Bailey is officially 6 months!! She loves to impress, so the morning of the 17th she started saying mama! Just out of the blue she was playing with her toys on the floor looked up at me and said mama....mamamama...mama.. then had a hugeeee grin on her face. Haha She knew she did something special. I was lucky enough to catch it on video. Not as good as the first few times. She saying it alot more now and every time just melts my heart!!

Feeling festive...

2009-10-14T11:15:00.001-07:00

Bailey feeling festive thought a orange carrot beard would be quite fitting for halloween time.

.....Note the carrot in the hair, on the forehead and eyebrows. Pro eater right here!

Play hard~!

2009-10-13T11:09:00.000-07:00

Bailey is sitting like a pro! She loves finding new things to play with and explore. My dear
friend Ruth met up with me yesterday and gave us some toys her little one has outgrown. Bailey had a field day today atfer i cleaned them up and put them together. This one was her fav by far!!

I saw the light..

2009-10-07T17:14:00.000-07:00

So i had an epiphany tonight on my my way home from work The song Stand came on by Rascal Flatts.. it was like a light bulb went off.. i sat there singing along to the song and suddenly i was like WOW I CAN DO THIS! No more whining or complaining! I got this! I am strong. I think for the past few years it has been nice to be able to lean on John for support, but i cant do that anymore. I have to stand on my own two feet. I love my family ALL of my family they offer so much support but now is the time i need to do this by myself because i know i can. Watch out world HERE I COME!!!

STAND

You feel ike and candle in a hurricane

Just like a picture in a broken frame

Alone and helpless

Like you've lost your fight

But you'll be alright,you'll be alright

(chorus)

Cause when push comes to shove

You taste what you're made of

You might bend, till you break

Cause its all you can take

On your knees you look up

Decide youve had enough

You get mad, you get strong

Wipe your hands shake it off

Then you stand, then you stand

Lifes like a novel

With the end ripped out

The edge of a canyon

With only one way down

Take what your giving, before its gone

Start holding on, keep holding on

(Chorus)

Everytime you get up

and get back in the race

One more small piece of you

Starts to fall into place

(chorus)

Just Sitting around.....

2009-10-06T08:40:00.000-07:00

My little baby girl is just growing up so fast. She is starting to sit a bit not for too long and most of the time with support but she loves it! She gets all excited and she falls over haha. I love to watch her wonder and excitement with new things. She can just light up a room. Shes such a little Angel.

Cuz Baby its cold outside!

2009-10-06T08:28:00.000-07:00

We had a really chilly day last week so Bailey got to test out her new Winter hat! How dang CUTE!? Thanks to Nana Mac for getting it :) She kept it on for a while till she realized she could take it off!

Clothing Optional

2009-10-06T08:19:00.000-07:00

The 17th is coming way to fast! My little stinker will be 6 months! Holy Cow! Here's some new pics of her! She loves hanging in her diaper! Silly Girl!

John's 4 day visit!

2009-09-29T07:12:00.000-07:00

John was able to come home for 4 days! It was such a tease but also a blessing to have him here. Bailey knew who he was right away! She couldn't take her eyes off him. It was nice to have him home. We had so many plans in our heads but didn't do any of them we just wanted to relax in each others arms. We made a point to see family because that was important but other than that we just wanted to spend time together. He left Sunday morning to go back to base and he flew out last night to go overseas. It hit both of us hard that he really is leaving. He's not in the states anymore. It was much harder this time knowing its going to be alot longer till i see him. The goal is to get him back for Baileys 1st Birthday! Needless to say we had an amazing time together. I love him so much, he is my everything. I married my best friend and my hero.

My baby is on youtube!!

2009-09-29T06:59:00.000-07:00

http://http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zi0NXSLEkVA

Video of Johns Deployment ceramony. Its in albanian. A guy from Kosovo came over and taped the ceramony. My sweet little girl is in it!

5 months gone by

2009-09-19T17:39:00.000-07:00

Time is just flying by with my sweet little girl. She turned 5 months on the 17th! It seems like only yesterday we were in the hospital waiting for her arrival. We have been doing good. She keeps me busy and i need that. Shes my little buddy. I dont know what i would do with out her.

Baby Bling

2009-09-09T17:51:00.000-07:00

My beautiful little girl got her ears pierced today! She did great. Only cried for like a minute. Janna came with me for support. She got lovely little pink flower earrings!! What a trooper! And they look absolutely adorable!

Sweet Potatoes!

2009-09-08T18:22:00.000-07:00

She had her first bite of real food yesterday, quite different from the rice cereal. She loved it! What a cutie. Yum yum sweet potatoes. Thats my girl!

Twinkle toes

2009-08-29T17:42:00.001-07:00

Well I've been wanting to do these pictures for a long time. I had the little tutu outfit since before she was born! I had sooo much fun taking these pictures. Hope you enjoy.

Daddy daughter time.

2009-08-25T16:54:00.001-07:00

John and Bailey having a little bonding time. She's starting to notice him on the computer now, so that really helps John feel like she wont forget him. I can just see it now when he gets home. I'll tell her to go get daddy, she'll bring me the computer. haha

Queen of the Throne

2009-08-25T16:42:00.000-07:00

ok.. not that throne.. haha! I was so proud of myself yesterday, I bought a highchair and put it together by MYSELF :) I was soo excited! I let Bailey take it for a test drive. lol She had her first bowl..ok few spoonfuls of rice cereal this morning!

My big little 4 month old!

2009-08-21T09:55:00.000-07:00

Here's new pics of my sweet lil babe.

A long road.....

2009-08-18T18:10:00.000-07:00

So Bailey and I have survived a week...Yeah i know only a week. Many, many more to come. I've been trying to stay busy, working everyday trying to spend time with family and friends. Staying strong for the most part. Nights are defiantly the hardest. John and I talk on the webcam basically every night but after we hang up i just lie there. Thinking...worrying....(so not good for me.) I can be completely exhausted but i still have to force myself to sleep. Hopefully that will get better with time. Once i get used to him not being here, he will be back lol